A social worker whom I have a great deal of respect for, and to whom I am extremely grateful for her help, once told me that I am only one man. That is all that I need to be.
The Man of Haze Gray Steel
Journal
The Form of October Rust
When I was stationed in Seoul, South Korea, I was assigned to SUSLAK, an NSA/CSS (National Security Agency/Central Security Service) facility. During one mid-watch, my watch supervisor put on the album October Rust by Type O Negative. When “Love You to Death” played, I was blown away, and I literally replayed the track for 12 […]
If I Only Had A Brain
Every morning when I look into the mirror and see my mid-to-late-40s statesman qualities arriving on the shores of my life, I begin to feel like the Scarecrow when the Great Oz gives him a diploma…
The Form of the Watch Stander of the Sea Wall
I think the reason I committed myself so fiercely to my government transparency investigative work was because I lost everything and everyone that I ever loved in my life, and I wanted to let go of believing in the possibility of feeling joy within my own life so I could dedicate myself to protecting others […]
Sea Stories – USS Bataan (LHD-5) – 2007 – 2008
During a day at sea, I was sitting in an office with my fellow first classes, and we were taking a moment to coke and joke (take a break). We were telling jokes, talking about life underway, and having a good time. Then, all of a sudden, we heard the doorknob move, and everyone stopped […]
Phalanx Training Day 21 of 245
Physical Training Upper Body Walk: 7 miles Academic Training I am writing a letter to Pastor Post of Redeemer Lutheran Church to respectfully request that he mentor me as I study the writings of Martin Luther. Pastor Post’s sermon on Wednesday deeply moved me because it restored a trust within my soul that was broken […]
The Form of the Blade Runner
I have been a Trekkie my entire life, but during the time my soul connected with investigative work, lawful civic information warfare (Iowa Code Chapter 22), research, and building AI/Automation workflows I have to confess I am a Blade Runner now. This movie series is my jam. #tech #noir #cyberpunk #ai #automation #cybernetics #meaning #real […]
Spiritual Transformation
The most challenging and spiritually transformative experience of my life has been building court cases related to my investigative work. I felt a personal duty to honor every U.S. Navy Chief Petty Officer who trained me and helped shape the man I became. I sought to fuse those skills with my study of the law […]
The Transcendence of Castle Pyre
When I was stationed in Seoul, South Korea, I was assigned to SUSLAK, an NSA/CSS (National Security Agency/Central Security Service) facility. During one mid-watch, my watch supervisor put on the album October Rust by Type O Negative. When “Love You to Death” played, I was blown away, and I literally replayed the track for 12 […]
The Form of the Spiritual Lighthouse
I have spent many years of my life lost at sea trying to find answers regarding what the country that I served truly represents. Then a beautiful lighthouse radiated light into my soul, helping me realize that much of what once consumed me cannot lead humanity toward the Kingdom of Heaven. The only thing that truly […]
